deadlines lol help. I am just now sort of figuring out what I want to do with my life and its kinda too late to apply to the colleges that'll teach me that stuff help.
What do i want, lol i dunno but here's a list of the stuff i want to do musical theatre play writing, acting, dancing, singing CREATING designing travel help people ... das pretty much it but the problem is i have a lot of self doubt and I know I'm going to fail that's not what I'm a afraid of. I'm afraid of not getting into college doing the major I want (musical theatre). I have to get into college but my grades are trash and I am just now figuring this shit out. I quite literally cannot afford and expensive mistake such as not doing that. Under all this mess i still have essays and crap to write bc I'm still in high school. Its like I'm walking down a long hallway and 'm looking at the end of it but its like those movies where the end keeps warping and getting further and closer, like an optical illusion, but also there's stuff I keep bumping into on the way to the end of the hallway. I need God or Jesus to come down and smack me in the face with the pamphlet of the school i end up at to ease my nerves, but the likelihood of that happening is zip to zilch My mom and i are going to Jamaica to see our family in a couple weeks and i have to explain to them that the niece/ whatever they thought was gonna be the scientist studying at Yale or Harvard is actually the disappointing theatre kid... Not gonna be fun, not gonna stop me, bust still not fun. I excited for the day where I look back at this and laugh for doubting myself.
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Vanessa Foxyou know how you have a train of thought? well i have a train station and all the tracks run over each other and i'm never quite sure which train i'm on. SO welcome to the true definition of a trainwreck :) Archives
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